Monday, October 15, 2012

I Don't Not Have It Together...but

I kinda feel like I don't have it together. I'm pissed that my home scale lied to me, so imagine my surprise when I weigh in tonight. Booo. I was up 1.4lbs, not the end of the world but easy to see where it could feel like the end of the world right? 

I try my darndest to stay positive and find ways to keep my momentum on the up and up, but I tell you what. It is completely exhausting. Physically, emotionally and any other way one thing can be exhausting, keeping it together is exhausting.

I've Googled extensively into the wee hours of the morning sometimes, searching for an explanation as to how a seemingly average, fairly successful twenty-something with a semi-bright future can so easily feel like a pile of muck, stuck in a rut and have such a generally blah outlook. First I'd like to blame Facebook, no but really. In what time in the past were your peers life so readily available for viewing and comparison? So and so is having a baby, so and so is engaged. Blah blah.

Your twenties aren't what they used to be. I think it's kind of placed a disconnect between generations in that older generations remember their twenties and don't remember it being too difficult and younger generations look to past generations and see that they had already established so much at the same age. In my Google search I found a book 20 Something 20 Everything: A Quarter-Life Woman's guide to Balance and Direction I'm only 36 pages in and can already relate. So far the author is sharing research and findings after she interviewed many women both currently in their twenties and the previous generations of women now later in their lives and shares their reflections on the same period of time in their life. 

I've already highlighted some common feelings that I share from excerpts from other twenty-somethings, "I experience misplaced energy from a weak sense of self. A lot of two steps forward, three steps back." or the statement "Twenty-something women spend a lot of time wondering, planning, and feeling overwhelmed while searching for answers."  UM HELLO!? These sentences were the first time that I, obviously through others, was able to myself articulate how I feel. The book also goes onto comparing how in the past women's roles were more defined, and women today have so many more opportunities which is awesome, but also creates the perplexity of "having it all" the family AND the successful career. And ain't it a b**** that men don't really have this. Their roles in society haven't changed nearly as women's have in the past decades, lucky jerks. So looking back women my age were typically married/children well on the road to happily ever after Leave it to Beaver family perfection [obviously I know that rarely is ones life perfect with no turmoil, it helps my case if everyone was Mrs. Cleaver, ok?] 

Basically I'm overwhelmed, not in like a debilitating I-can't-leave-the-house kind of way (although sometimes it can feel like it), but more in the my mind is going a hundred million miles per minute and I can't figure out where I want to go. I'd love to look into other career opportunities but in this job market/economy who can afford to up and leave their 401k and health benefits in order to roam around finding a job in something interesting. I just don't have the luxury there. It's hard to not mental note compare where your classmates are in life because it's updated in your newsfeed. 

All things seem to point to patience and time, a certain level of mediocrity, faith and a lot of dreams. So I will just continue to keep on keepin' on until a little bit of luck rolls my way, but sometimes it is just exhausting. I had to vent, thanks for listening. :) 


Monday, October 8, 2012

WOO HOO

I happy to say that if you get with the program and stick with it, it works. Today after what I thought would be a terrible week I was down 2.2lbs at weigh in for a total of 7.6 lbs! Which is totally awesome! 

I kinda feel like this year has come full circle a bit. I started off the year with such good intentions, as most do, then fell off the wagon over the summer. But the cooler weather has given me back the ambition and Weight Watchers has helped tremendously these short 3 weeks. That's all it took apparently. It appears that I have an attention span of a week, so weekly goals are more my speed. A few weeks ago at our meeting, yeah they really kinda like "Hi my name is Heather, I eat too much"... "Hi, Heather" we were talking how it's only about 6 weeks until Thanksgiving and think of all you can accomplish in 6 weeks. I hope I can keep up a lot of the same, it would be nice to get some confidence back.

I'll post some more recipes soon! 

Monday, October 1, 2012

WW: Turkey Burger

I joined Weight Watchers a few weeks ago and I'm glad to be back with it. I had joined once before several years ago and did really great with it but then fell off the wagon pretty hard and didn't quite get back up. I've been a little down lately and think that losing some weight will help get my confidence back and get me on the right track.

Tonight was weigh in and I was down a 2.2lbs from last week bringing my total to 5.4! I got my 5lb sticker today! It's been really helpful to have gma making delicious dinners. We've been trying out recipes from the Best of five ingredient 15 minute Recipes from Weight Watchers. I promised I'd share some of the recipes we've been trying and here is a super yummy one, turkey burger! oh my was it yummy, it's even gpa approved! 

PointsPlus value per serving: 8
Prep: 5 mins * Cook: 7 mins

1/4 cup dry breadcrumbs
2 tablespoons fat-free milk
2 large egg whites
1 1/2 pounds ground turkey breast
2 teaspoons 25%-less sodium Montreal chicken seasoning
1/4 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
cooking spray
1 (1 1/2 ounce) whole wheat hamburger buns
curly leaf lettuce leaves, refrigerated fresh salsa, and red onion slices (optional)

Instructions: 
1. preheat grill to medium high heat
2. Combine first 3 ingredients in a large bowl. Add turkey, chicken seasoning, and pepper. Using hands, gently mix until blended. Divide mixture into 4 equal portions, shaping each into a 1/2 inch thick patty.
3. Place patties on a grill rack coated with cooking spray. Grill patties 7 minutes or until done, turning after 4 minutes. 
4. serve burgers in bus with lettuce, salsa and onion slices, if desired.
Yield: 4 (serving size: 1 burger) 

Per serving: calories 336; fat 4.7g (sat 1g, mono 1.4g, poly 1.5g); protein 48.8g; Carb 28g; fiber 3.5g, chol 68mg; iron 3.6mg; sodium 444mg; calc 66mg


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